Ok call me mushy, whipped, overly attached, whatever else you wanna call me but I’m just so in love with my boyfriend.
He is going through the most difficult time in his life right now and seeing him hurt and struggle is killing me. Just looking at him and seeing the sadness in his eyes make me want to cry.
Whenever he cries, I cry. I wish I could take all the pain away and heal his heartache. I know I can’t and I think that is what upsets me more.
I feel what he feels. When he’s happy, I am happy. When he is sad, I am sad.
I can’t imagine what he’s going through by losing his father. His dad meant everything to him.
I see him and his adorable face and my heart is filled with joy but then I see his sorrow and I want to do anything I can to fix it. I know only time and my support will help that but I don’t like how he is filled with this pain.
He made his dad so proud and will continue to make him proud.
He has made me so proud. I know he can conquer anything that crosses his path and I know he is an amazing man.
No one can make me feel like he does. He’s my best friend and the man I will love for the rest of my life.
He’s graduating in 2 weeks, going back home to work and I will be up in College Station once spring semester starts.
I know it will be hard put these past couple of years have been the greatest time of my life. I know we can make it through it. i am just worried I won’t be there for him when he needs me.
What scares me even more is that I may be moving to a different state. I know he needs me. I want to be there for him but this is the chance of a life time.
He would never hold me back but like I said, his pain causes me pain.
I love Jon more than anything in the world. but im afraid to be happy about this opportunity in front of him because he is so sad.
I guess we just have to see where the pieces fall into place.
All I know is that I hope we can make it work either way